I was a problem child since young having changed countless of schools and being rejected from every group that i try to join. I also Have Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) and because of that i am quite bright. Picking up skills in a few months that many people take years to pick up. Like coding or English. It’s a matter of whether i wanted to give my best to it. Having no close friends even till now, definitely make it hard at especially such young age but what makes it harder is having no parents to talk to. Being a Cheerful person definitely help to lift my mood. But when lonely times hit, when you need a companion, when you need someone to be there for you. There is no one. And that is when i thought alcohol could solve all those problems making them disappear ,just for that moment at least, however I’m just getting deeper down the rabbit hole.